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Everyone questions themself at least once in their lives.

I just happen to do it almost everyday of my life. And today is one of those days.
Im questioning a lot of things right now... like if school was the right choice, if I can accutally graduate, if im as good as I think I am in the things that I do. Can I really pass LTC? Can I survive the Army?? Be a good Officer? Should I just say FUCK it and embrasse my lower middle class, blue collar life that I grew up in and just go be and Iron work?? I always loved watching and hearing about my mom and Grandpa. Now my brother is doing it too. Im happy for him but Im afraid he might do something stupid and black mark my family's name. But anyway. Why am I the way I am. Why do I have almost NO respect for myself, or any self confidince.

I feel like Im never going to be good at anything, let alone great. All I want to do feel good about who I am, where I am, and what I do.

I need more faith...
((God... Please help me, Show me the light I once had. I know that you have not turned your back on me but I turned on you. I know I make many mistakes, I know thats all I do. But I want to live a better life. I miss having you in my life, I miss that light I used to be filled with. Please Lord, Please Help me. Your heavenly name I pray))

Alex